What happened to yesterday?
When all I would do was play?
      Innocent and free
      Fun and happy
           -that was me.

But something happened.

suddenly the door was opened
   and my life shattered. became fragments.

I learned to survive in a moment

One shard said lesbian- (not quite)
Another, our groups' depression- (almost right)

I saw girls and boys; confusion.
I saw pins and razors; delusions.
  we turned her in as a cutter
  she left us in the gutter
  hatred was all she had for me
  i missed her; she was my first:

      First relationship. first kiss. first 'love'. first heartbreak.

When she dropped me I cried. I only felt dead inside. Why did she do it?

But now it's past- over and done
And she won't let go of what happened
she continues to hurt me,
say and do just what she knows will be the worst.

Of all my friends, she was the best.
Of all my friends, I lost her first.